7 tahun selepas tamat ijazah pertama di USM, rasanya inilah kali pertama kitaorang jumpa.. sedar tak sedar, rupanya bukan jauh mana pun.. Diane di Putrajaya, De-Yana paling dekat rumahnya.. Taman Melati je.. Een je yg dok Ipoh.. 

Daine dah nak habis PhD, tunggu masa.. tak lama lagi berstatus pensyarah di USM.. De-Yana pulak sama status dengan saya, student. Een sekarang dah jadi lecturer kat Politeknik.. masa berlalu tanpa sedar, masing-masing menongkah alam dewasa yg penuh cabaran..

paling tak dijangka, Daine.. punyalah slim nak banding dgn zaman degree dulu.. penangan susahnya study sampai PhD agaknya..

Balik Kampung kali ke dua

Selang dua-sehari selepas sampai ke KL, saya balik kampung lagi.. kali ni ikut sepupu, alang-alang dah kereta kosong, dan kelas pun dibatalkan.. apa lagi.... nak ikuuuuut jugak!

Esoknya, pergi kenduri di Jitra..

Alang-alang sudah ke sana.. sempat pula ke Tasik Bera, kononnya sepupu saya nak beli pokok anggur..alih-alih tak ada pula.. permandangan kat sana, memang sangat cantik..masa kami sampai kat sana, cuaca sngat panas, mata nak buka pun susah..

Lawatan Tapak

Sebelum cuti semester, 1st year degree QS-KAED organised satu lawatan tapak. Disebabkan ketiadaan wakil dari lecturer perempuan, maka saya pun join lah adik-adik ni.. memang excitedsangat tengok rumah banglo yang besar-besar kat Subang Bestari tu.. sebesar rumahnya, sebesar itu jugalah nilai harganya. memang tak ada daya orang macam saya nak beli rumah dengan harga jutaan ringgit Malaysia.. maklumlah, student.. hehe

tapi, lepas tu mulalah berangan nak ada rumah yg sedemikian rupa.. disebabkan saya pernah berada dalam industri pembinaan, dan sedang membuat kajian tentang kemampuan pemilikan rumah bagi golongan yang berpendapatan sederhana di Kuala Lumpur dan sekitarnya, maka nilaian saya berbeza.. mahalnya rumah bukanlah pada kos pembinaannya, tetapi nilai hartanah..banglo unit yang sama, jika didirikan di atas tanah lot kampung.. nilai RM2.5 million di Subang Bestari tu, boleh jadi RM250,000 di kampung. maknanya, kita hanya perlu menggunakan 1/5 daripada harga di bandar..

Disebabkan itulah kehidupan di Kuala Lumpur sangat menekan. Jika berkehendakan rumah yang selesa, maka kenalah bergaji besar. Rutin hidup juga terkejar-kejar. Jika tak kejar klien, tak dapat bisnes, tak ada bisnes, tak boleh nak hidup.. 7 tahun berkelana di KL, membuatkan saya lebih menghargai kehidupan di kampung.. 5 tahun bekerja dalam industri pembinaan, pelbagai tekanan saya hadapi, hendak dikatakan bergaji besar.. tidaklah juga..sekadar bertahan untuk mengumpul pengalaman hidup, agar suatu hari nanti saya akan kembali menjadi seorang pensyarah yang ada pengalaman yang bukan mengajar berdasarkan teori semata-mata.. itu saja niat di hati saya. Alhamdulillah, terkumpul juga serba sedikit pengalaman nak buat binaan bangunan.. daripada site clearance, sampailah nak pasang floor tiles/wall tiles.

Bertambah-tambah gelodak jiwa dan perasaan untuk balik bekerja di kampung bukan sekadar nilai hartanah yang tinggi. Tanah yang luas di kampung, memungkinkan untuk bercucuk tanam pelbagai jenis pokok buah dan sayuran, di bandar seperti KL, bukannya tak boleh.. hendakkan tanah yg luas dan rumah yang besar.. hendaklah terlebih dahulu menjadi millionaire atau billionaire..

Apabila saya mula membaca tentang HIJAU (green), kemajuan mapan (sustainable development), saya mula menyukai kehidupan di kampung, which meant pada saya, it is more GREEN. dan saya mula menghargai nilai alam semula jadi.

hijau kampungku

Kali ni balik kampung, sempat juga saya 'captured' tanaman yang ada di sekitar rumah (mak dan pakngah). seronoknya duduk di kampung, nak makan apa, boleh petik.. Nak cili, bendi, ketula/petola, kelisa, terung, nenas, cempedak, betik, mangga, timun... semua ada belaka..

yang paling geram, buah mangga harum manis. nak beli, belum musim. tanaman pakngah pun baru berusia 6 bulan. tapi sudah menampakkan bunga. disebabkan pokok masih terlalu muda, bunga ni harus dikorbankan. maka, sekadar dapat dilihat saja bunga mangga yang sedap ni. tondam, cokonan, sala, water-lily, mangga India, mangga epal..semua tak boleh lawan kesedapan mangga harum manis, sudahlah manis, isi kuning merah-merah..baunya harum.. sebab tu namanya jadi harum manis..

walau bagaimana pun, mak bodek pakngah untuk tinggalkan sebijik mangga harum manis pada satu pokok ni.. hasilnya, ini...

Ya Rabbi, sedapnya sampai berbekas di mulut.. Inilah salah satu uniknya Perlis, sebab ada mangga harum manis yang mudah untuk hidup subur..

Kisah untuk diinsafi..

It 's about 6 months I haven't written anything here.. suppose that my study progress becomes faster.. hurm.. actually it nothing much difference from what I have done from last semester.. n'way.. Alhamdulillah.. thanks to Allah for giving me a life like this..

During semester break I went back to Perlis, spent nearly to 2 weeks at my hometown.. as usual, I drove alone all the way from IIUM to Perlis.. 4 and a half hours, I reached Alor Setar, stopped by Tesco Star Gate and brought some stuffs for my mum. Then, met my cousin at Anak Bukit/Alor Merah (actually I can't remember what is the exact name for his place) to pick a new camera..

Next a few dayspital to take care of him. Alhamdulillah, everything is in order. Next to him, was a Chinese school boy.

He got serious injured after hit by a car/lorry. His knee was screwed to the bed and cannot move.

In front of that boy, was an old Chinese man, also cannot move after split on the floor. In the afternoon, new patient came in. A school boy with broke bone. A victim of school bus accident. Pity him. He is a niece to my ex-schoolmate when I was studying at SMKA(P) Kangar. Both parents are doing PhD at the same university with me, IIUM.

That night, we shared some experience as being a PhD student. and I realized, what had happened to them, is a test for the parents.. yes, the test is not on the study itself but, by something else around them. The father to that boy said to me, "You are very lucky because you are still single, you don't have a lot of things to think about, just focus on your study". He told me again, before the accident, their second child was suspected a cancer. After series of treatment, now their second child is cured from cancer. Now (at that time), they have been tested again.. by that incidence.

So, do I very lucky because I am still single while I'm doing my PhD? Allah knows.. :)

Being Single

When I just started my PhD, I think it makes sense why I’m still single. Last time, I think marriage is something beautiful and wonderful. Yea, have a life partner, can go anywhere together, sharing everything and having babies and so on. Now I am realizing when a woman getting married, most of the burden is on hers. During a pregnancy, I observe a lot of symptoms happened.

i) Morning sickness
ii) Nausea and even vomiting
iii) Fatigue
iv) Frequent urination
v) Repulsion of certain foods and smells.
vi) Incredible appetite
vii) Dizziness and feeling faint
viii) Mood swings

Then, during trimester pregnancy these will happen

i) Backaches and hip pain
ii) Leg cramps
iii) Shortness of breath
iv) Varicose veins, hemorrhoids and spider veins
v) Swelling of the feet and ankles

What happen if I have to go through all these hard moments alone while a husband is not around? Who cares? At the same time I have to finish my study, rushing with assignments, presentations, collecting data for research and sometimes doing part time jobs. Then, I have to walk around the campus because the campus is not car-user- friendly. It is hard to get parking and limited to the students. Unless, I declare myself as an OKU. Studying and working while pregnant are not going to be easy because I need to take EXTRA good care of myself. If stress it can lead to high blood pressure, eclampsia, anemia, fluctuating blood sugar levels and bla.. bla….. of course stress when a husband is not around, busy with his business, work commitment and so on..

After pregnancy, during confinement may be better. I can take leave and it can be good IF at that time I already collect data for literature review or already collect data (survey @ questionnaires). So, it is a time for me to do the analysis.

After that, who want to take care of my baby? Send to my mom? How about breast-feeding?
See, a lot of question marks there.. and I don’t want to describe more…

Okay, some may say, for what you are studying up to PhD level? As a woman, why don’t you just marry and stay at home doing chores, prepare meals, washing clothes, take care of the house and children while the husband going out for working? Easy job right? But it is not easy actually, unless I’m married to a rich guy who can support me financially and mentally. Is the money very important to me? Not at all, but the most important is………….





..my contribution the society, nation and my religion.


Oh, I am not a superwoman.

Registration

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Now, I'm a university's student again. Actually, I'm carrying this status since I was in 19. After completing my 1st degree in 2005, I started to work with consultant QS firm and then register as part time student for doing MSc. by research. It was not going easy carrying two status. Alhamdulillah, I managed to finished my master degree but it took more than 5 years to graduate. Along the way, there were a lot of hardships. All the praises to Allah for giving me the strength to come accross the ordeal. After 6 years working experience as a QS and lecturer, I decided to resign and focus to my study. Even I have resigned from my current job and don't have a security in term of monetary, I believe, there is a good fortune for me.

I was registed on 5th of September 2011. After paying the study fees and mahallah fees, officially I'm became a student. Woow, such a great feeling. On the next day, I sit for English Placement Test conducted by CELPAD, alhamdulillah I was exampted and could register to the respective Kulliyyah I was offered.

The processes as a student will have not finished until death